Sorry for not posting in a week. Working six days straight does that to a girl!

I'm annoyed. I weighed in this morning at 222.0 up 0.2.

It wasn't a steller week for me but I did stay within my points. My problem I think is in how I use my points. Three days this week it was so crazy at work u didn't have breakfast or lunch and then had takeout for dinner.

I get frustrated. Why bother to try and lose weight if I can eat what ever I want and stay the same.

Anyway, frustration aside, it's a new week and in going to do better this week. I've been far for a lifetime it will take more than a week to lose the weight.

Just a quick post tonight. Super sleepy!

Didn't have a chance for lunch at all today and just a boost protein shake for breakfast but it was a good day! Chicken and rice for dinner.

I'll do a proper update tomorrow and I'll get my before pics posted! Not looking forward to that!

First and foremost, Thank you to everyone who has already shown me support! I have 'Team Awesome' Doing it with me and bundles of cheerleaders!

Realization of the day - Need to go grocery shopping!

Breakfast and lunch were both provided at work today so I tried to stick to the healthiest possible options.

I had coffee and fruit for breakfast
Chicken and rice for lunch with salad
and for dinner I had pan seared halibut with corn and salad.
 
I'm very proud of myself for not snacking today! Tomorrow's goal , drink more water!

I made extra fish to have for lunch tomorrow. When I said 'made' I took the boxed frozen fish and put it in a frying pan. I was feeling exceptionally lazy tonight but they are only 6 weight watchers points per fillet. Not particularly tasty so I wont be buying those again. 

I think tomorrow is going to be oven roasted chicken with either green beans or broccoli for dinner and a smoothie for breakfast. As long as I finish work by 5pm tomorrow I'm also going to hit the gym. I can't wait until it warms up again so I can take the dog for a proper walk!

I have been over weight my entire life. I can't remember exactly when I went over 200lbs, but I think it was in highschool. I dropped down about 40lbs in highschool and then over time gained it all back. I weight also fluctuates a lot. The two pictures below are taken only a couple months apart.

I have tried everything except tried and true dedication I think. I am a living, breathing roller coaster. I have done Weight Watchers (many times), Jenny Craig, Pills, Dr. Poon, Dr. Brown, Low calorie, low fat, and an extreme measure I don't even want to openly talk about ( message me privatley if you are considering drastic measures because I have stories that may convince you otherwise!) I have a gym membership I don't use and a bucket full of excuses as to why. I was 'wogging' (what I fondly call a mix of running and jogging) 5K races and my biggest accomplishment was a 10K. It was freezin cold and pouring rain but with the help of Dan I was able to make it through. I was so proud! Then I got really sick. I ended up in the ER. Without getting in to all the details right now I have neurpathic pain  and it's triggered by exertion and stress. I'm not making it up, I swear! But I have medication to keep it under control. Other than one trip to the gym I haven't exercised since.

I don't want to focus on the negatives though. This is a new start! It used to be about being comfortable in my skin, now its about my health. I have enough health problems without giving myself more to worry about.I want to have kids and to be a positive influence in my children's life. I want to be able to shop in 'regular' stores and not just one's that carries plus sizes. I want my life to be centered around my family and friends, not around my next meal.

I am making the conscious decision to start my journey to a healther me, right now. Not tomorrow, not Saturday. NOW. I will officially weigh in on Saturday and i'll post my weight weekly but I did weigh in this past Saturday at 223.4. My highest, that I know of, was 228 right after Christmas. I started doing weight watchers last Saturday and it was going well until yestrday. I worked 15hrs and got food brought to me throughout the day. I was feeling guilty and saw a You Tube video my friend had posted about beginning her Weight Loss journey and offering to let others on a weight loss journey tag on for the ride! While I am going to stick to WW, I think I need a little bit more structure to get me started off right. She is going to be my weight loss buddy :) follow her here at http://healthywholemomma.weebly.com/ she is doing the "whole30" plan which is VERY similar, if not the to the Dr. Brown diet I did before and it works wonders. I felt so much better after just a week. I found it really hard though with all the meals out of work so WW is probably a better, more flexible option for me. I'm going to try and mix the two to make it work for me.  

I'm going to post my daily meals, any great recipies i come across, and hopefully some information for others! I'll also take a couple before pictures on Saturday so I can visually see my progress!

This has turned in to a massive first post but I wanted to start from the beginning!

- Kat